70 days without T

 Hello,

    Recently I've survived dengue fever. I lost so much weight, my arms look like twigs. Yuck! It'll take a while until I'm back in shape. For now I look like bones and I'll focus on recovering weight before thinking of hitting the gym.

     I'm also on my period again, which came in time (good sign, means dengue didn't screw up my hormonal cicle), and wearing a menstrual cup isn't bothersome anymore - I even got a bigger one because my small one was leaking. Sex wise I'm noticing I don't need lube for vaginal anymore, though I still use a bit of it to ease the process sometimes. Sometimes I can start without it even. Pretty cool.

    I've also noticed that the fat around my tdick area has somewhat buried it. Pussy gets really dehydrated on T, and its full of the side fat cushion situation again now, which makes my tdick look smaller. But pulling skin back makes me see it's still basically the same and in there. During periods, T levels rise a bit and I have an easier time having boners again, during those times it feels like as if nothing much changed since I was on T. During my periods I also notice I get the boner response more noticeably in comparision to getting wet during arousal. Its not as hard as it was on T but its something.

    I've been playing with wigs and feminine clothing. Its cool to play with this kind of gender presentation. I've been very comfortable as someone that is attractive to lesbians. I guess I've been dating gay men for so long I got tired of it, I need a new kind of gay in my life. I also love the kind of people I attract by being so androgynous and feminine. There is great gender euphoria in being feminine looking but with a stubble and a masculine voice.

    I get called a girl from behind sometimes, mostly now that I lost a lot of weight I guess. On the front it depends on either I have a beard or not, but even without it its a 50/50 I'd say. 

    The upper part of my thighs hair is thinning down, and my eyebrows may be a bit thinner.