I'm so smooth now its crazy. I look like an overgrown infant. No one believes I'm 30.
Having facial hair and a deep voice really does all you need to pass as a man though. People don't seem to care I have large hips and boobs, though mine have always been very small.
Some of my hairline is growing back. I'll shave it all off so it grows even eventually, but for now I like seeing the comparision.
The short hairs here are all growing back after stopping T.
If enough grows so that I no longer have a hair island and a deforestation crevice on the top of my head, I'll be satisfied.
Other than that I've been having a discharge situation. Though it makes sense things down there would be a bit confused after a hormonal imbalance. I'll wait some months to see how things go. I remember when I started T and discharge stopped I slowly migrated to a more nonlachant approach regarding my underwear (or lack thereof) usage. Without discharge to bother you, you can wear the same undies the whole day. It really doesn't go bad. You can even not wear underwear, you won't stain anything. With discharge however you have to be more cautelous. It becomes a sensory nightmare to wear the same underwear for too long, and preferably change it before it reaches that point. Not wearing underwear will stain whatever you're wearing, not to mention you having to wash it after once use because it'll be full of dried up gunk in it.
Some people that have not seen me in a long time notice I look different from before. But people that see me often don't seem to notice it, or at least have not commented anything with me.
Libido is still the same as before, though I do feel like I was going insane in the second or third week without T. It was very high, and I'd often had a high libido at the end of my T cycle. I feel as if being horny is different now so I had to adapt to what being horny with estrogen as a dominant hormone is like - the poetic comparision I can give is that T makes you hyperventilate and focus your mind on it, estrogen makes it boil your whole body, so its like you're being taken over by a greater force rather than being determined to do something. This "fire" sensation on T is on the chest and groin, and on E its everywhere. I'm still thinking of sex daily like how it was on T, though its easier to ignore those thoughts when I feel like the effort outweights the results.
For a while I felt as if I needed to go easier on the gym, I'd be running out of breath with the exercises. I readjusted the time I need between sets and my breathing through them, so I feel like I can do as much as before now, if not a bit more as I've been more consistent with my training. I take a longer time than before on the gym though, but the end result seems to be the same.
What I do with my sets is do those slower, making sure I breath properly while doing them, always intake some air before a movement, and don't continue on another set until I feel like I'm fully recovered. So something I'd do in say two minutes I'm doing in 3:30min to 4mins now. It feels like as if it is the obvious thing to always do with or without T, but I feel like while on T I could do those high effort movements faster without catching for a breath easier, though the exhaustion impact would hit harder after through the day. Feeling wise I think this may have to do with heartrate, I feel as if mine is slower on E. So with a heart pumping less blood around those things that require a lot of blood run out of battery easier, I end up having not enough blood in my head or whatever else because all goes to the part I'm exercising - I can still do all those movements as fast as before with T, the strenght and capacity are still there, I just feel like I'll pass out after, the muscles are still there but my heart doesn't pump enough blood for it.
Fat redistribuition wise, all fat in my body seems to be slowly migrating to my ass and thighs. I feel it the most at my wrists, calves and arms, they look thinner. My boobs and pubic area don't seem to be getting any more fat than they already did, and if they're still growing its not as noticeable as before.
Boob wise they're swelling, but I'm already familiar with the difference between swelling up and getting more fat on it. I'm probably somewhere close to my period again in my still readjusting hormonal cycle.
My beard is taking forever to grow and I notice the part that connects my moustache with my goatee is less dense now. I feel like I'll be a bad example with body hair things as I've always had very little of it. Before T I only had a pubes and some smidges of hair on the outer side of my lower leg and forearm. T made it spread to my whole legs and groin, though it has never been very dense or dark. I also have it on my chest and belly areas, possibly where its the longest and darkest though its still not that much in comparision to the average uncle out there. Most of it has concentrated on a beautiful tonsure around my ass. My arms, butt and back have basically nothing still, so if you're wondering if stopping T will make the epaulettes go away I won't be able to give any input on that. I think I'll have to wait some months to actually give any input on the body hair situation because I'll have to wait for my current ones to hit the falling part of their growth cycle and then grow back as new estrogen dominant hairs.
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